Sorry for the lack of an update. I've been busy.
Oi! I've been working!
Here goes ...
[*deep breath*]
(1) Been working at Westminster Kingsway College for two weeks as a temp in the MIS Department.
http://www.westking.ac.uk/wkc_website/home/home.asp
Nice people. Fairly boring work. This assignment ends tomorrow (Friday, April 1st). 'Twas a very long commute by bus anyway (no chance I can afford the tube before 10 AM).
(2) Still sleeping on Androo's floor most nights ... so no change there. There is a bit of impending drama, apparently, because I'm there. I don't think the landlord really minds but Los Columbinos Locos (a mother & son demonic duo) are in fits. I have been respectful, tidy & quiet (when I'm actually there) ... so they have bugger-all to bitch about! From what I've been told, they think they run the house and make attempts to control everyone who lives there. Think again, amigos!
For the record, Androo & I are still getting on fine. I am away at work all day and both us spend some nights away ... so it's been okay really. But it's still a floor!
(3) I have been social a bit more lately and have done some travelling. I went to Peterborough two weekends ago to meet an fellow OUTer named Gareth. On Easter weekend, I went to Bournemouth (beautiful place!) to see the lovely Paul again. I've also made a new friend I refer to as ''Irish Tony'' who works near me round Victoria. He & I get on well ... when we're not arguing about his 'sharp' sense of humour. Tony will surely end up with a smacked bottom if he doesn't behave!
[*giggles*]
(4) I won tickets to The Paul O'Grady Show with Boy George but couldn't go because I had to work. [*gasp*] I sent Androo in my place, of course! I did get to see it on telly though.
(5) The cheque for my first week of work for ROC never arrived! So, they are cancelling the cheque and paying it directly into my account (as they were supposed to anyway!). I cannot believe my cheque actually got lost in the post ... but I guess it *is* believable, considering how the rest of 2005 has been going for me!
(6) I finally have an appointment to get my National Insurance Number on Monday. Should run smoothly enough if I have all the documentation they want! Until I have that number, my wages are 'emergency taxed' at a rate of >40% (which I can get back at some point).
(7) Don, a friend from OUT in the UK who I don't see often, is taking me to see THE NOMI SONG next Wednesday. It's a documentary about the life of Klaus Nomi (of whom Androo & I are both fans).
(8) The ''official'' end of my course studies at LC is next Friday, 08 April 2005. I haven't been to college in weeks because of all of my back holiday time but I thought it was worth mentioning.
So that's the news. Sorry ... no time to be stylistic or clever today !!!
[*hops off hurridly*]
Richard the Big Bunny
17 March 2005
ROC: Standby ... hurry up & wait!
Today, I went into ROC on standby but didn't get an assignment.
BOO!
It takes more effort & discipline than I can actually muster to be shaved, suited, booted & leaving Androo's in Mill Hill (Zone 4) by 0715 !!!
And all that for nothing ... today anyway.
So many of you keep saying ''THINGS ARE GETTING BETTER'' ... you think?
I have a positive attitude but, honestly, things are NOT better. Yes, I am away from Stephen but I am also away from the practicality of Stephen's comfortable & convenient flat.
This photograph shows how/where I sleep on Androo's floor.
That's just a reality check ... not a plea for sympathy.
I am very grateful to Androo but it's hardly ideal, is it?
Life is very hard at the moment but the path I have chosen is the right one for me. My path lies in England, be it easy or difficult. Of that I'm certain.
Richard
BOO!
It takes more effort & discipline than I can actually muster to be shaved, suited, booted & leaving Androo's in Mill Hill (Zone 4) by 0715 !!!
And all that for nothing ... today anyway.
So many of you keep saying ''THINGS ARE GETTING BETTER'' ... you think?
I have a positive attitude but, honestly, things are NOT better. Yes, I am away from Stephen but I am also away from the practicality of Stephen's comfortable & convenient flat.
This photograph shows how/where I sleep on Androo's floor.
That's just a reality check ... not a plea for sympathy.
I am very grateful to Androo but it's hardly ideal, is it?
Life is very hard at the moment but the path I have chosen is the right one for me. My path lies in England, be it easy or difficult. Of that I'm certain.
Richard
15 March 2005
On the floor ... the only way is up!
This week is off to a good start!
I've sorted out that I can take ONE BUS all the way to Oxford Circus ... which is remarkable considering just how far out I am (the farthest northern reaches of Zone 4).
My ''bonus day'' at Mason Philips on Monday went well. Got a lot done for them. I rather enjoyed being there and I suspect one of the ''gentlemen in power'' fancied me!
8-)
To be honest, I kind of fancied him, too ... despite our age difference.
Tuesday, I took a day off. I needed to settle in here at Androo's in Mill Hill. In retrospect, it probably was not a good idea. I had a bit of a moody, contemplative day.
Everyone seems to think things are looking up for me but it doesn't really seem that way when I'm in the way asleep on the floor.
Up at 0445 to shave, shower, suit & boot. Must get down to ROC and hope for an assignment!
I will be looking for work up here. That would certainly make things easier and would mean there would be a chance that I might get enough sleep.
Off to bed now ... too late as always.
Richard
I've sorted out that I can take ONE BUS all the way to Oxford Circus ... which is remarkable considering just how far out I am (the farthest northern reaches of Zone 4).
My ''bonus day'' at Mason Philips on Monday went well. Got a lot done for them. I rather enjoyed being there and I suspect one of the ''gentlemen in power'' fancied me!
8-)
To be honest, I kind of fancied him, too ... despite our age difference.
Tuesday, I took a day off. I needed to settle in here at Androo's in Mill Hill. In retrospect, it probably was not a good idea. I had a bit of a moody, contemplative day.
Everyone seems to think things are looking up for me but it doesn't really seem that way when I'm in the way asleep on the floor.
Up at 0445 to shave, shower, suit & boot. Must get down to ROC and hope for an assignment!
I will be looking for work up here. That would certainly make things easier and would mean there would be a chance that I might get enough sleep.
Off to bed now ... too late as always.
Richard
12 March 2005
File *this* ...
[Saturday, 12 March 2005]
I have had a two-day ''desperation'' assignment filing 8 hours a day [Thursday & Friday].
It's not as bad as it could be, I guess. I am sorting, binding, filing and shuffling boxes ... which is, at least, variety.
Because the whole block had no water Friday morning, we got sent home at noon. Yes, I do get paid for the entire day!
Back there on Monday for one more day ... unless something long-term comes up (not likely, according to my agent Jools).
Boxing up my things to leave behind (stored here at Stephen's flat in the spare room) and packing the few bits I'm taking with me in my suitcase. Sleeping on Androo's floor starting on Sunday. BAH! Way out in Zone 4 as well ...
Off tonight to see a 'housing co-op' in Stratford. I met someone on OUT who lives there. He seems sweet and is rather lovely but I am not sure if this is a date or not. I am taking him soup (I made about 4 litres of organic vegetable soup last night!).
8-)
Richard
I have had a two-day ''desperation'' assignment filing 8 hours a day [Thursday & Friday].
It's not as bad as it could be, I guess. I am sorting, binding, filing and shuffling boxes ... which is, at least, variety.
Because the whole block had no water Friday morning, we got sent home at noon. Yes, I do get paid for the entire day!
Back there on Monday for one more day ... unless something long-term comes up (not likely, according to my agent Jools).
Boxing up my things to leave behind (stored here at Stephen's flat in the spare room) and packing the few bits I'm taking with me in my suitcase. Sleeping on Androo's floor starting on Sunday. BAH! Way out in Zone 4 as well ...
Off tonight to see a 'housing co-op' in Stratford. I met someone on OUT who lives there. He seems sweet and is rather lovely but I am not sure if this is a date or not. I am taking him soup (I made about 4 litres of organic vegetable soup last night!).
8-)
Richard
09 March 2005
CORRECTION: I do NOT have a job ...
I just got a call from Rebecca at Office Angels.
I do NOT have a job.
Apparently, the company I was meant to start working for tomorrow is in receivership and the new owners do not want to pay for any more temp workers (because of the cost/fee or whatever) and are getting someone from inside the company instead.
So that's that.
I am back to nothing.
And, yes, I am in tears ...
Richard with £10.00
I do NOT have a job.
Apparently, the company I was meant to start working for tomorrow is in receivership and the new owners do not want to pay for any more temp workers (because of the cost/fee or whatever) and are getting someone from inside the company instead.
So that's that.
I am back to nothing.
And, yes, I am in tears ...
Richard with £10.00
08 March 2005
I AM GAINFULLY EMPLOYED! But I have no delusions about it being 'fulfilling' ...
I have accepted a long-term assignment from OFFICE ANGELS.
It's a temp job (at least a month) with a small medical office that does the health screening & testing for several train companies.
Speciality services, eh?
Unfortunately, I can only describe the job as ''JOY-FREE''. Endless paperwork going from one disorganised mess into another disorganised mess while the phone rings!
[*grumble*]
I guess I can make improvements.
I'm taking over!
After all, who's the Supreme Bunny of Organisation & Order ?!?
8-)
I start Thursday.
Irony of ironies: The job is ONE BLOCK from Stephen's flat but I must move out of here on Sunday.
I will be sleeping on Androo's floor for a *while* ...
8-(
Richard
It's a temp job (at least a month) with a small medical office that does the health screening & testing for several train companies.
Speciality services, eh?
Unfortunately, I can only describe the job as ''JOY-FREE''. Endless paperwork going from one disorganised mess into another disorganised mess while the phone rings!
[*grumble*]
I guess I can make improvements.
I'm taking over!
After all, who's the Supreme Bunny of Organisation & Order ?!?
8-)
I start Thursday.
Irony of ironies: The job is ONE BLOCK from Stephen's flat but I must move out of here on Sunday.
I will be sleeping on Androo's floor for a *while* ...
8-(
Richard
07 March 2005
MONDAY: I got work to do!
Well, I worked today!
My assignment at the Sport Desk at The Evening Standard turned out to only be for one day but it was an okay gig.
I was '9th in line' today at ROC's offices (my agency) but, thankfully, it doesn't really work like that.
This was a media job and that's one of my flags.
8-)
Weeeeee!
Richard
My assignment at the Sport Desk at The Evening Standard turned out to only be for one day but it was an okay gig.
I was '9th in line' today at ROC's offices (my agency) but, thankfully, it doesn't really work like that.
This was a media job and that's one of my flags.
8-)
Weeeeee!
Richard
05 March 2005
An open letter from a sad & desperate Bunny!
To the Handy, Clever, Empowered &/or Well-Connected:
Help! My life is a mess !!!
Up until now, I thought ''the grip of despair'' was just a poetic turn of phrase ... it's not.
No one wants to hear it and I am tired of repeating the same bad news ...
I have grown weary of my own sad story!
No actual job or income yet, despite effort and being taken on by several of the best agencies in London.
Harsh reality: I have £20.00 left and am homeless in ONE WEEK.
In addition to living expenses, I need to earn & save up about £2000.00 by June for exams (£100+), tuition (£1300.00) and visa (£250.00 application fee).
Did I mention I can only work 20 hours per week, according to the terms of my visa?
Shall I go on?
[*slightly over-the-edge mad laugh*]
Practical ideas welcome. Live-in Job? Temp work? Miracle job with work visa? Marry a British national ?!?
At least all this stress has me losing weight.
Now that is a sad, desperate attempt to look on the bright side!
I require so little and was once so happy no matter what.
I miss the old Big Bunny, too.
Thanks.
Richard
Help! My life is a mess !!!
Up until now, I thought ''the grip of despair'' was just a poetic turn of phrase ... it's not.
No one wants to hear it and I am tired of repeating the same bad news ...
I have grown weary of my own sad story!
No actual job or income yet, despite effort and being taken on by several of the best agencies in London.
Harsh reality: I have £20.00 left and am homeless in ONE WEEK.
In addition to living expenses, I need to earn & save up about £2000.00 by June for exams (£100+), tuition (£1300.00) and visa (£250.00 application fee).
Did I mention I can only work 20 hours per week, according to the terms of my visa?
Shall I go on?
[*slightly over-the-edge mad laugh*]
Practical ideas welcome. Live-in Job? Temp work? Miracle job with work visa? Marry a British national ?!?
At least all this stress has me losing weight.
Now that is a sad, desperate attempt to look on the bright side!
I require so little and was once so happy no matter what.
I miss the old Big Bunny, too.
Thanks.
Richard
04 March 2005
Like a ROC ...
After three hours of testing and interviews, I was taken on by ROC, one of London's finest placement agencies!
They seem very keen to place me on Monday morning. I'll be there (all the way down on Bond Street) at 0830. That means I'll have to leave the flat no later than 0715 (shaved, suited & booted) to catch my bus. Conveniently, the same bus I was taking to my college goes there. It's actually just the next stop along.
ROC deals mostly with upper-level corporate work, which pays more. I'm likely to be a glamorised secretary or some corporate Big Wig's bitch-on-call. Sir, Yessir !!!
I got a call-back from ROC this afternoon but the job on offer was for 6 months full-time, which I can't do because of my visa.
DAMN!
I can work full-time but only for the next six WEEKS ... then part-time only.
So no job yet ... but I will be in their office bright & early Monday morning. Also, my other agency ''Orifice Angels'' is only three blocks away, so I'll be ringing them and letting them know I am closeby, available, ready and pretty ...
Toot-toot ... HEY (!) ... beep-beep!
8-)
Lest anyone forget that I am homeless in a week and I have about £10 (in toto). Despite this, I am surprisingly calm.
Richard
They seem very keen to place me on Monday morning. I'll be there (all the way down on Bond Street) at 0830. That means I'll have to leave the flat no later than 0715 (shaved, suited & booted) to catch my bus. Conveniently, the same bus I was taking to my college goes there. It's actually just the next stop along.
ROC deals mostly with upper-level corporate work, which pays more. I'm likely to be a glamorised secretary or some corporate Big Wig's bitch-on-call. Sir, Yessir !!!
I got a call-back from ROC this afternoon but the job on offer was for 6 months full-time, which I can't do because of my visa.
DAMN!
I can work full-time but only for the next six WEEKS ... then part-time only.
So no job yet ... but I will be in their office bright & early Monday morning. Also, my other agency ''Orifice Angels'' is only three blocks away, so I'll be ringing them and letting them know I am closeby, available, ready and pretty ...
Toot-toot ... HEY (!) ... beep-beep!
8-)
Lest anyone forget that I am homeless in a week and I have about £10 (in toto). Despite this, I am surprisingly calm.
Richard
03 March 2005
THE PRICE OF STARDOM: I have a stalker!
This person has launched some sort of public smear campaign against me.
Why? Well, it's not really clear.
I have not done him, his friends or anyone he knows wrong yet he's investing quite a bit of time & energy in attacking me.
Rather sad ... but kind of funny!
I did meet him and hang out a few times back in 2003 but then he stopped speaking to me suddenly, which did rather confuse me at the time ... and now ... out of the blue ... this madness!
==
[After quite a few unprompted public attacks over the course of several days, I publicly asked Marcus why he's stalking me.]
feedmeseymour: i am SO not stalking you... just sick of your constant whining. [Thu 03/03/05 16:20]
bigbunny: Okay. Is that all? Is there some major horrible thing I've done to you personally? Never did sort out why you suddenly stopped speaking to me ... and now onto outward public attacks ... ??? What exactly can I do to appease you? I honestly have bigger things to worry about ... but your minor actions, comments and attempts at slander could have a negative impact on me. Please stop. Thank you. Richard [Thu 03/03/05 16:24]
feedmeseymour: everything always has a negative impact on you. because everything is always about you and what you can get. why don't you do yourself a favour and get a JOB! [Thu 03/03/05 16:34]
bigbunny:All I want is a job and to remain here in the UK. Thank you. That is all I want to 'get'. I have had interviews every day this week, save today. However, my day at home phoning & emailing has been most productive, actually! Tomorrow, I have two more interviews (so far). Clearly, there is nothing I can say or do to change your view of me ... so I am not going to try. Your mind is made up. I am rather occupied with finding a job and a place to live (all about me again!). If you would just leave me alone, that would be sufficient. You might consider just walking away next time rather than making enemies. As you grow up, you will learn about not 'burning bridges' & attacking others ... especially when you have no grasp of the situation or its complexity. Good luck in all you do. Richard [Thu 03/03/05 16:59]
feedmeseymour: given that you have made no effort to be my friend apart from when you want something i don't see how there was any bridge to burn in the first place. maybe if you'd spent some time when you got here trying to get a job and a place to live like a normal person instead of spongeing off men who were stupid enough to believe you wanted them for more than their money to fuel your lazy lifestyle, you wouldn't be in the mess you are in. i don't see anything complex about the hole you've dug for yourself. and don't patronise me. you know absolutely NOTHING about me. because you never bothered to ask! [Thu 03/03/05 17:07]
bigbunny: Let's see ... I made many efforts to be your friend ... examples ... took you to that 6Music event (thanks for the makeup, again) ... took you to see TABOO for free (at a £30 cost to me) ... bought your CD ... came to your birthday gathering ... Mind you, I didn't see many of my friends often when I lived out in Berkshire with Lindsay ... so it wasn't just you. What did I ever 'want' from you, ask for or get? Please do explain. I have never sponged off anyone. Only Lindsay has ever 'given' me anything and you can feel free to discuss that directly with him (rather than misconstruing your own storyline with Mark Caruana). [Link directly to Lindsay removed for privacy] I have made some bad choices, I admit ... but it's not from 'ineffective sponging'. If I wanted a Sugar Daddy, I could have one, Sweetie. Richard [Thu 03/03/05 17:17]
feedmeseymour: you are a fantasist and a liar. simple. all the things you mention were actually at someone else's expense... for someone who isn't a "sponge" i find it odd that all your boyfriends always seem to house you and pay your way... [Thu 03/03/05 17:21]
bigbunny: Yes, yes ... I am a liar, a loser, a sponger and generally a very bad person. [*sigh*] Happy now? What or where has that got you? You don't care at all about the truth ... just maintaining your point of attack ... and, again, why? What good is it to you? You don't know anything about my relationships but you clearly have a very fertile imagination. If someone is or was paying my way, I wouldn't be so poor and dependent on meager eBay sales, temp jobs and graphic design work for money. I do hope it is bringing you hours & hours of joy focusing on me. It is flattering. How's your music career? Still *flat*? Richard [Thu 03/03/05 17:36]
==
8-o
Suffice to say, he is very wrong ... or I wouldn't be parading his accusations about!
If he were right, I'd be cowering and keeping all this to myself.
I just hope he's not actually dangerous ...
Richard
Why? Well, it's not really clear.
I have not done him, his friends or anyone he knows wrong yet he's investing quite a bit of time & energy in attacking me.
Rather sad ... but kind of funny!
I did meet him and hang out a few times back in 2003 but then he stopped speaking to me suddenly, which did rather confuse me at the time ... and now ... out of the blue ... this madness!
==
[After quite a few unprompted public attacks over the course of several days, I publicly asked Marcus why he's stalking me.]
feedmeseymour: i am SO not stalking you... just sick of your constant whining. [Thu 03/03/05 16:20]
bigbunny: Okay. Is that all? Is there some major horrible thing I've done to you personally? Never did sort out why you suddenly stopped speaking to me ... and now onto outward public attacks ... ??? What exactly can I do to appease you? I honestly have bigger things to worry about ... but your minor actions, comments and attempts at slander could have a negative impact on me. Please stop. Thank you. Richard [Thu 03/03/05 16:24]
feedmeseymour: everything always has a negative impact on you. because everything is always about you and what you can get. why don't you do yourself a favour and get a JOB! [Thu 03/03/05 16:34]
bigbunny:
feedmeseymour: given that you have made no effort to be my friend apart from when you want something i don't see how there was any bridge to burn in the first place. maybe if you'd spent some time when you got here trying to get a job and a place to live like a normal person instead of spongeing off men who were stupid enough to believe you wanted them for more than their money to fuel your lazy lifestyle, you wouldn't be in the mess you are in. i don't see anything complex about the hole you've dug for yourself. and don't patronise me. you know absolutely NOTHING about me. because you never bothered to ask! [Thu 03/03/05 17:07]
bigbunny: Let's see ... I made many efforts to be your friend ... examples ... took you to that 6Music event (thanks for the makeup, again) ... took you to see TABOO for free (at a £30 cost to me) ... bought your CD ... came to your birthday gathering ... Mind you, I didn't see many of my friends often when I lived out in Berkshire with Lindsay ... so it wasn't just you. What did I ever 'want' from you, ask for or get? Please do explain. I have never sponged off anyone. Only Lindsay has ever 'given' me anything and you can feel free to discuss that directly with him (rather than misconstruing your own storyline with Mark Caruana). [Link directly to Lindsay removed for privacy] I have made some bad choices, I admit ... but it's not from 'ineffective sponging'. If I wanted a Sugar Daddy, I could have one, Sweetie. Richard [Thu 03/03/05 17:17]
feedmeseymour: you are a fantasist and a liar. simple. all the things you mention were actually at someone else's expense... for someone who isn't a "sponge" i find it odd that all your boyfriends always seem to house you and pay your way... [Thu 03/03/05 17:21]
bigbunny: Yes, yes ... I am a liar, a loser, a sponger and generally a very bad person. [*sigh*] Happy now? What or where has that got you? You don't care at all about the truth ... just maintaining your point of attack ... and, again, why? What good is it to you? You don't know anything about my relationships but you clearly have a very fertile imagination. If someone is or was paying my way, I wouldn't be so poor and dependent on meager eBay sales, temp jobs and graphic design work for money. I do hope it is bringing you hours & hours of joy focusing on me. It is flattering. How's your music career? Still *flat*? Richard [Thu 03/03/05 17:36]
==
8-o
Suffice to say, he is very wrong ... or I wouldn't be parading his accusations about!
If he were right, I'd be cowering and keeping all this to myself.
I just hope he's not actually dangerous ...
Richard
02 March 2005
Clinical exhaustion? Stress-Induced Coma? Silly Bunny?
Wow ... I came home from my day out registering with new agencies & the like and felt *REALLY* shit.
I managed to buy some fruit on my way home from the bus stop but barely got in the door to sit the bags down and bring my briefcase to a resting point before I felt dizzy and FELL onto the bed!
I've been asleep for 5 hours. I have a severe headache (which I never get).
I do hope I'm not dying. That won't do at all!
It's weird ... I didn't decide to take a nap. Rather, it sort of took me!
I cannot afford to be ill. Let's hope it's just exhaustion.
I did meet a new OUT friend, Matt, for lunch earlier (his idea & he paid!) and he's rather nice. He's good for me. ''Tough love'' and all that. I need someone to kick my arse a bit ...
I did get a bit accomplished today job-wise but I never did find ManPower at 52 High Holborn. I walked ALL of the road from one end to the other. The addresses go as low as about 150 before the street ends and splits into Shaftsbury Avenue and another street. I was PROPER knackered. Walked all of that in the rain, for the record.
Back to bed soon. Still feel very odd and unwell.
Richard
I managed to buy some fruit on my way home from the bus stop but barely got in the door to sit the bags down and bring my briefcase to a resting point before I felt dizzy and FELL onto the bed!
I've been asleep for 5 hours. I have a severe headache (which I never get).
I do hope I'm not dying. That won't do at all!
It's weird ... I didn't decide to take a nap. Rather, it sort of took me!
I cannot afford to be ill. Let's hope it's just exhaustion.
I did meet a new OUT friend, Matt, for lunch earlier (his idea & he paid!) and he's rather nice. He's good for me. ''Tough love'' and all that. I need someone to kick my arse a bit ...
I did get a bit accomplished today job-wise but I never did find ManPower at 52 High Holborn. I walked ALL of the road from one end to the other. The addresses go as low as about 150 before the street ends and splits into Shaftsbury Avenue and another street. I was PROPER knackered. Walked all of that in the rain, for the record.
Back to bed soon. Still feel very odd and unwell.
Richard
Quote of the Day
''It's just so way-out insensitive ... I still can't believe it ...
When the troll has finished with his ring and gone back to Middle Earth, he'll realise!
He'll be old and lonely one day and realise he should be considerate of others' feelings ...''
- Anonymous friend being supportive.
[*mad fit of giggles*]
How rude!
I'm not explaining it but it is funny ...
Richard the Big Bunny
When the troll has finished with his ring and gone back to Middle Earth, he'll realise!
He'll be old and lonely one day and realise he should be considerate of others' feelings ...''
- Anonymous friend being supportive.
[*mad fit of giggles*]
How rude!
I'm not explaining it but it is funny ...
Richard the Big Bunny
01 March 2005
Pardon me for not killing myself yet ...
What kind of speed-reading, cunt of a neanderthal could possibly read this blog and garner THAT from it? I do pride myself on clarity if not brevity!
Apparently, I am not sad & suicidal enough for some of you.
I am working my arse off to find a job and I still get this kind of shit thrown at me!
What the fuck is wrong with you people ?!?
All I can say is, fuck you and learn to read.
If I seem angry, it is because the above example is the *THIRD* time I have dealt with an accusation about my situation and an attack on my character JUST TODAY!
I have felt sorry for myself and cried enough. I do not feel guilty about having a date over the weekend (no money of mine spent) or staying with my mate in his hotels (yes, one was in Brighton) when I was forced out of the flat for three days.
And which 'others' is he referring to above who are supposed to be helping me? My friend from America who was here working? The date whom I just met? Who?
I am not a prostitute. It doesn't work like that ... at least not with me.
Unfortunately, there is no one helping me. I have Androo's floor to crash on but that is the extent of it. Full stop.
Would any of you like to see my bank balance (to-the-wall on my overdraft) or my credit card bill (no credit left)? I guess I'll have to post scans of it all.
When I said I had £10 in cash to last until Friday, that is exactly what I meant. It was not and is not an exaggeration. My eBay/PayPal money totals £70 and that will hopefully be in my bank account by Friday. Over half of that will go towards my minimum credit card payment, leaving me about £25 to live on until ... just until!
Winding everyone up? Wind it up your arse ...
Richard
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